This past month has given me many things to worry about, and therefore my anxiety level has been quite high. If you read my blogs on “travel” and “Ireland” you will no doubt notice the many opportunities I had to worry. First there was the lead up to Ireland where anything could go wrong – driving on the highway, getting to the airport on time, would my luggage be overweight, would I pass security without further examination. The worst had to be the take-off in the plane, where anything could happen and which brought me to tears. My worry subsided somewhat after we reached a comfortable flying altitude. But then it was time to start worrying about the landing. It's almost like a job. The trip home seemed worse – I worried more I think. There was the added element of the bus ride to the airport. I worried a lot about that. And of course our luggage weighed more – that was a concern. My anxiety was very high the day we came home.
During the time I was away, my son travelled to Madagascar, Africa on a humanitarian mission with Scouts Canada. He was gone almost a month. That sure gave me a lot to worry about. So much could happen over there and I was so far away. They were building a school. He could be injured on the job site, contract any number of diseases, or miss his flight home. And everything warranted worry for me. Back I was on the highway to the airport. Would his plane be one time – and it wasn't. Due to a storm he was actually diverted to another airport, so it was hurry up and wait for four hours – all the while my anxiety level was rising. In the end he made it home safely and I felt the greatest relief I have felt in I don't know how long.
My daughter is allergic to nuts and soy – very common products. This causes me huge anxiety. Whenever she is out of my care I worry. It is a constant source of anxiety for me.
Ruminating causes stress and anxiety to rise. It's not always controllable but keeping busy helps. I vow to try to keep my mind busier than it has been. And I'm grateful that most of my worrying ends up for not.